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On becoming someone I no longer need to hide. Masks, mistakes, and finding my way back to myself.

The beautiful, delicious chaos, that is my life 28 years on this Earth and while it feels like a lifetime of experiences… I recognize how truly short my journey has been this far. That there is so much yet to do, see, learn, observe, appreciate. My journey has just begun. I unlock the padlocks that kept me chained at the wrists, hacked by the belief that I was being held against my will….yet in my pocket, was the key. To the little girl in me, that I am for you today. The gir

Letting go of survival, the beginning stages of transformation I have been beating myself up about a lot of things since I stopped playing the victim. It destroyed every perception, guard, defense… everything. The entire tower crumbling down like never before. It has been 2 Summers, since I decided I wanted to rewrite my entire story. To change the way I have been living and perceiving life. I started to believe that I deserve a good life, good things, good love. and all at o

What Happens When Survival Ends and Identity Begins? I don’t think I ever built a snowman. I don’t have a memory of it, at least. Maybe snowball fights with the neighborhood kids…but a real snowman? Big and tall. One that takes hours to build. Frozen hands, packing snow until your fingers ache. The careful placement of eyes, a carrot nose, a scarf. Maybe even a hat. Yesterday, I realized I don’t even know where to start. My husband laughed softly and let me do my thing as I b